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| 17 11~ Well I wasn't feeling too well in the morning but anyway just relaxed during the day and
bummed around hehe~ anyway, at night Odi called me to come and drink at her place.. little
did I realise her place is on the other side of Auckland haha~ so we driving around looking
for her place and we took almost EVERY wrong turn and not even arriving at her place until
12:30am -.- hahah! Got to meet some cool new people hah~ Doug, Danny, and Anna~ they are so funny, Doug and Danny
are pretty good at drinking too =p but Anna was drunk pretty quickly haha ^^ well considering I didn't last for very long it was pretty lame-.- lol.. We played 5 card game and for some reason everytime I play that I always lose aiya.. after that most of us were drunk and being stupid hehe.. we played many stupid games
that I hardly even understand lol~ But best of all I got to play 15, 20 hoho~ my favourite
game ^____^ We left Odi's place about 5:30am and Tak drove us back to city~ Tze was so fucking KO'd haha
so he just sleep all the way back and sleep in the car until 9am the next day~ 18 11~ Didn't get much sleep from the night before = =.. woke up around 11:30am and turn my phone
on because no batt, lucky my mum called me but my phone died instantly haha~ so I run around
to the lift and go up to 13th floor and Tak and KaWai's apartment to borrow phone so I can
call her and organise things~ after that we just relaxing, Tak hurt his foot playing
Basketball the day before so let him relax and went to get some food from the dairy for him
then just play around until about 2pm when my mum arrived.. once she arrived me and Tze moved
my bed up to my apartment yay, no more sleeping on the floor haha~ what a mission to get it
up there though, sigh.. after that we went and bought my new ps2 hehe^^ Went home, cleaned up a little bit then went to Tze's place.. was pretty tired so while he
was playing ps2 with his brother ALL day I went to sleep hoho~ woke up about 10pm and got
ready to go to margi =p we got there pretty late, about 1pm~ We left about 5am ai.. still have to go to work at 10:30am hahaha~ chi lun sing~ we went to
BK before going home anyway, I was so damn hungry! =p.. arrived home cleaned my room and
turned out my duvet is too big for the duvet cover lol~ anyway still looks nice.. and my
room still damn messy! Hopefully sort that out after work hoho.. if I don't die when I arrive
home lol.. so tired~ | | |
| What am I?The Invisible Man  How does it feel to go unoticed in everything you do? I try to make good impressions, first impressions are of course the most important but to
keep them up is the MOST important! I sometimes wonder what am I to others? Seems a very
rare occasion I will be treated like a friend and with any respect. Does everyone think I
am colorwolf who go to Margi every weekend to find girls? Is that why people don't treat me
how I would like to be treated? Because I don't know what I do wrong otherwise, please tell
me. For that plain and simple reason, NO I am NOT like that! Anyone that doesn't know ( not many
it seems ) I go there alone, see a few friends, dance for hours downstairs, and then go home
alone. I do NOT go there to find girls!~ I love the music and I thoroughly enjoy dancing
so thats what I go there to do.. Please stop treating me like a nobody or a dodgey person
because of what I do in my spare time, considering nobody invites me to do anything and I
only go clubbing at Margi every Friday, Saturday it doesn't make me something that I'm not. | | |
| 10 11~ What a stressful morning @@!!!!! ai... Ok so I moved out of my apartment during the day, got
pretty much ALL my stuff that I possibly could get in 1 go and moved it into Tze's car which
is currently my my home for the moment ahhah~~ I will move in with Angela and Mickey next
Thursday!^^ Can't wait will be good fun :) After I got all my stuff out of my apartment I went to Midcity and just wasted time till
later in the evening, myself and TzeFung went to Friday Bar on the NorthShore for Penny's Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY : D   We singk for about 3 hours there and drinking drinking drinking = ='' hahaha.. wow.. I was
so surprised at the reaction when I sing chinese :O!!! A feeling that people normally don't
give me.. I was very happy and they were so supportive too!~~ I also sang Janice ( 大哥 ) with
Penny the Birthday girl hahaha.. she hardly sang just listen to me :P! At about 12:30am
Ka Wai, Oli, Blandon, and Jack turned up so we played pool downstairs for 1 hr before everyone
went to Margaritas!! hahahah.. Party Party Party at Margi all night until about 5am!! Me and Blandon left and went to Midcity after that I watched Final Fantasy Advent Children
then went to Byron's place to sleeeeeeep~~~ ZZZzzZzZZZ I was pretty happy with things this day, wish everyday was more like this haha^^ | | |
| 8 11~ SICK SICK SICK =( God I HATE injections!!! >.< Went to work this morning feeling depressed and in a bad mood, sore stomach, headaches etc..
I was in no condition to work at all~ So my boss let me go and see the doctor, I was looking
on the net and saw one was just around the corner! (yay)........ little did I realise that
"just around the corner" was about a 20minute walk ;-(
So I made it there, bought some vitamin C from the chemist, and then went into A&E to check
prices etc............. $55 just for check up???? I never realised cost so much to tell me
that I'm sick.. hahaha~
Told the doctor my symptoms and they gave me injection.. ;-( hate them so much! My leg gone
numb, can't feel anything hahaha, told me I cannot leave for 20mins.. So I just rest there~
Also bought some Papaw cream too, good for skin hoho~ Went home and sleep, relaxxxxxxxxxxxxx~~~~~~~~~~~~ | | |
| 7 11~ I'm rethinking things these days.. whos real? whats real? where do I stand with things?
Seems like I dont stand anywhere anymore~~ I'm often feeling betrayed, lied to, and feeling
so worthless.. I don't know if all this adds up to how I feel in life right now or is it just
because I havn't found anything to be happy about? Or should I say, someone.. I really
don't know. Who is there to trust? Words don't mean anything to me anymore, and I will not let anyone
take advantage of me again.. It keeps happening over and over I've just been blinded because
of lonelyness.. I'm not a money tree, so don't call me to do something and ask me to pay for
you later.. I'm tired of it.. Problem is, how do I stop myself? I'm generally a nice caring
person and will do so for anyone I consider my friend, but it seems I don't get anything in
return.. maybe a "Thank You" on the spot.. but like I said, words don't mean anything anymore
since I don't get treated with the respect that I give. Too many times have I fallen into traps.. especially with girls, I get sucked into believing
things by girls who treat me so sweet one moment, and the next I'm forgotten about? Help me..
how do I avoid it, how do I work out whats real, how do I stop getting hurt all the time.. How should I choose my friends?.. And who actually are my REAL friends? Someone tell me please
because I have NO IDEA, so many fakes and liars out there.. Even with everything I do for
the ones I consider my friends, they don't seem to consider me a friend.. Is it because all
the people I consider my friends chinese? Because I don't hang around with any white people?
Am I weird because of that? Should I be pushed aside simply because I can't communicate fluently?
I thought people would support me, help me keep learning, even respect me a little bit simply
because im learning their language for no reason.. but apparently not~ sigh.. Maybe sometime in the future, hopefully near.. Things will brighten up for me, I will see a
path or something hopefully~ aiiiiii  | | |
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